I've been on and off with blogging for two years now, and I find it difficult to find the inspiration and the motivation to continue with it. I’ve completely run out of ideas for posts and I wonder was this just a temporary hobby for me, whilst I figured out what direction to take with my life. When I first started blogging it was something that I’d wanted to do for months, but I was made to feel like my one and only interest, hobby and career choice would be acting, when it was something I was rapidly falling out of love with and for a while I was fighting it, desperately wanting something different in my life. The day I sat down and created my blog and wrote my very first post was the day after I quit college. I finally felt free to pursue anything I desired. I quickly took up as many things as I could, and very soon I began to fall back in love with acting. It was as if my interest in beauty and fashion and how much my life revolved around it had truly inspired me and encouraged me not to give up my passion.
I planned my posts out weeks in advance and I would take as many photos as I could and they would inspire me to write more. I had so much fun with researching new products to mention on my blog. Working in retail really threw me into a life with seasonal trends and an ever-changing personal style. I really enjoyed and revelled in the new person I was becoming, and I had an amazing drive I can only dream of now. That person is someone I miss, and I wish I could go back to that, but I’ve made a commitment to my education and in order to live my life as it is now, I have to work so much there doesn’t seem much time for anything else. But my passion is leaving me again, and I don’t care for drama or acting or anything to do with it. I feel like I’ve thrown myself back into a world full of marking criteria’s and only doing the work to get good grades. I don’t love this anymore, and I don’t want to do it. So I’m starting to think; blogging inspired my life before, so can it do it again?
I’m going to try my absolute hardest to post, and rather than keep myself on a strict schedule, I’ll just write when I’m inspired to and when I want to talk about something. Last Christmas I tried my hand at more lifestyle blogging, and it was something I really enjoyed, so that will probably be 80% of my posts from now on – even though I work two jobs, I don’t have enough money to be buying new anything, and most of what I own now is what I came to university with. I think the main objective with me blogging is to write my feelings and my thoughts on my life and my interests, and hopefully find the inspiration to reclaim my passion, and to be happy with the person I am becoming.